Hey, you guys. So, I guess if you find this, then you caught whoever did this to me and managed to survive. Which is wonderful, even if I'm just as unhappy as all of you at the thought of dying.
I want to thank you all, though, in general. I've been so used to living for other's entertainment for so long, I didn't exactly have much to call my own, either. I was so used to existing for everyone else, making them happy, making them smile, and it just felt like that was all that I was good for. The industry I come from makes us to be these adorable, pure girls, and I'm so used to maintaining that image to a fault. If I didn't, I'd be tossed aside so easily. I kept waiting for that to happen, with all of you, that one day I'd just be too terrible for all of you.
But that day never came. And I'm sorry--I don't think I ever stated it enough, just how much that means to someone like me, who's so used to the idea of, well, having anything revealed about myself be enough to make everyone toss me aside. I appreciated that so much. It was like I got to feel like a real person, that it didn't matter who I was. It made me feel so free here. I felt as close to an actual person as I ever felt in this place, with all of you, and I want to thank you all for giving me that chance.
Listen. All of you, all of you wonderful people--I want you to keep fighting. Keep fighting for as long as you can, and win this. Win this, no matter what, and make sure they ever regret messing with any of you! You'll win this, as long as you set your mind to it and stay focused! But you all need to believe in yourselves, too! No matter what, never lose sight of that goal.
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EVERYONE
I want to thank you all, though, in general. I've been so used to living for other's entertainment for so long, I didn't exactly have much to call my own, either. I was so used to existing for everyone else, making them happy, making them smile, and it just felt like that was all that I was good for. The industry I come from makes us to be these adorable, pure girls, and I'm so used to maintaining that image to a fault. If I didn't, I'd be tossed aside so easily. I kept waiting for that to happen, with all of you, that one day I'd just be too terrible for all of you.
But that day never came. And I'm sorry--I don't think I ever stated it enough, just how much that means to someone like me, who's so used to the idea of, well, having anything revealed about myself be enough to make everyone toss me aside. I appreciated that so much. It was like I got to feel like a real person, that it didn't matter who I was. It made me feel so free here. I felt as close to an actual person as I ever felt in this place, with all of you, and I want to thank you all for giving me that chance.
Listen. All of you, all of you wonderful people--I want you to keep fighting. Keep fighting for as long as you can, and win this. Win this, no matter what, and make sure they ever regret messing with any of you! You'll win this, as long as you set your mind to it and stay focused! But you all need to believe in yourselves, too! No matter what, never lose sight of that goal.
I believe in all of you.
- Sayaka Maizono