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Letter to Mallick
Scott-san,
I imagine this probably isn't the most ideal form of conversation, especially after what I did over on the other side, so I wanted to apologize for that first and foremost. I just don't know if I could get my thoughts together enough in order to do it in person, but if that's something you'd prefer, I can certainly try.
The main point of this is that I really, really want to apologize for trying to kill you and for manipulating you in order to do so, and...honestly, for putting you through that whole song and dance of a trial. You absolutely, 100% did not deserve that, and I honestly can't imagine how bad it must have been over there, but it was completely horrible of me to use whatever caused you to come down there like that. I am so sorry for all of this. You shouldn't have had to go through that, and I really shouldn't have acted like I did; if I didn't, we'd both be alive. I'm so sorry for everything--Brady-san gave me an idea of just how horrible it was because of what I did, and I am so sorry that I put you through that.
I know you said it yourself during the meeting, that the only person you're angry at is Adjudicator-san, but...I genuinely don't blame you if you're angry at me for what I did. If I can be honest, I'd prefer it, because you're more than well within your right to be. I manipulated you and tried to kill you, and you died because you defended yourself. And it was especially cruel of me to do something like that to you, because you already must have gone through so much in that game you talked about.
...I don't know what more I can say that isn't repeating myself, or feeling like I'm being manipulative--I really want to try and stop being like that, or feeling like I'm doing that to people. If I am, please let me know? I don't know if this is even close to a sufficent apology for everything, but I want to try and send this to you before I wind up trying to throw it away and start over. I should've done this when you got here, and more importantly, I shouldn't have let it come to this at all.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I'm sorry once again. For everything. I don't know if it'd be okay to say this, but if you ever want to talk, just let me know--maybe actually hearing it would be better, but I don't want to rely on my intuitions for this. It'd be kind of insulting, I'm pretty sure.
- Sayaka Maizono
I imagine this probably isn't the most ideal form of conversation, especially after what I did over on the other side, so I wanted to apologize for that first and foremost. I just don't know if I could get my thoughts together enough in order to do it in person, but if that's something you'd prefer, I can certainly try.
The main point of this is that I really, really want to apologize for trying to kill you and for manipulating you in order to do so, and...honestly, for putting you through that whole song and dance of a trial. You absolutely, 100% did not deserve that, and I honestly can't imagine how bad it must have been over there, but it was completely horrible of me to use whatever caused you to come down there like that. I am so sorry for all of this. You shouldn't have had to go through that, and I really shouldn't have acted like I did; if I didn't, we'd both be alive. I'm so sorry for everything--Brady-san gave me an idea of just how horrible it was because of what I did, and I am so sorry that I put you through that.
I know you said it yourself during the meeting, that the only person you're angry at is Adjudicator-san, but...I genuinely don't blame you if you're angry at me for what I did. If I can be honest, I'd prefer it, because you're more than well within your right to be. I manipulated you and tried to kill you, and you died because you defended yourself. And it was especially cruel of me to do something like that to you, because you already must have gone through so much in that game you talked about.
...I don't know what more I can say that isn't repeating myself, or feeling like I'm being manipulative--I really want to try and stop being like that, or feeling like I'm doing that to people. If I am, please let me know? I don't know if this is even close to a sufficent apology for everything, but I want to try and send this to you before I wind up trying to throw it away and start over. I should've done this when you got here, and more importantly, I shouldn't have let it come to this at all.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I'm sorry once again. For everything. I don't know if it'd be okay to say this, but if you ever want to talk, just let me know--maybe actually hearing it would be better, but I don't want to rely on my intuitions for this. It'd be kind of insulting, I'm pretty sure.
- Sayaka Maizono