Note to rebut

[destage]

Naegi-kun,

If you manage to find this, that means I've died.

I want to thank you, first of all. You really did help me in the school--I meant everything I said to you there. I would've gladly been your assistant, and more than anyone else...I was glad that you were around. You may be Super High School Level Good Luck, but you're one of a kind--I don't think I've ever met someone so sweet who wasn't in it for ulterior motives! It's refreshing, if nothing else.

I need to confess something to you, though. I'm so sorry, but I lied about what time it was when I left. I had an appointment with someone else--I had to swap rooms with you so they wouldn't suspect anything.

...You're smart enough. I think you can see where this is going, right? I was going to use this as an excuse to kill someone. I needed to get back there--my career meant absolutely everything to me back there. In a way, it still does...but after seeing everything that this game has done to it's players, I'm horrified. I'm scared. Would I truly be any better than these people if I tried that back in the school?

Let me answer that for you; no. No, I wouldn't. I was literally willing to put something that I'd latched so hard onto for years against someone's life. That's hideous, isn't it? I must look much uglier than the Hunter's have left me at this point. If we had made it back to the school, I could have at least assured you that I wouldn't go through with it. You can thank this place for that, if nothing else.

...It probably wouldn't have ended well at all, would it have? Everyone seemed to react so strange to me on the first day, except for Kirigiri-san--she's always so controlled, I had to wonder if she was faking it. Oowada-kun said there had been a lot more night time announcements since then--I'd wondered if he was going nuts, but now I'm wondering if it would've been worth it at all if he's telling the truth.

...Naegi-kun, if you're the first one to find this journal? Make sure all of the notes get to their places. I'm sorry; I've asked so much of you and given so little in return. I'm not going to a good place when this is all over, but I just want to see if I can help, one last time.

Thank you, genuinely, for being my friend, Naegi-kun. ♥ I don't think sorry will be able to repair what I've just said, if you believe me at all. I think I've apologized enough here to begin with...but I'll say it one more time. I'm so, so sorry.

Please, please make sure everyone else leaves here alive. I believe in you.

We'll leave this place alive, I promise.